Let’s Just Talk

You ever get into those moods where you're feeling super nostalgic? Like you find yourself reminiscing over old photos or messages with friends? That was me just now both in a positive way but also in a "hated that season lol" kind of way. I haven't written on here in well over a year. SO much life has happened and it would be impossible to put it all into a condensed blog post. Maybe over time I can fully unpack the way God has outdone himself in my life through the valleys and the mountains.

Anyway, I was looking through old text messages of a time that was so rough and I genuinely started to LOL. Like truly laugh out loud. I laugh because I can't believe that that was my life at some point. I feel so far removed that it doesn't even feel like it was my life. Things that used to frustrate me or offend me, now seem so small in the grand scheme of what I have now seen God do and what He is continuing to do.

What possessed me to get up and start typing was you...or whoever reads this, haha! You are precious to the Lord. He will do anything He can to protect you and rescue you. Heartbreak or disappoint is a small price to pay when it comes to the longevity of your life. He allows it to hurt now so that it can be healed, restored, and solid for the sake of later.

The other day I was having a minor mental breakdown lol and the Lord had to get me right. I was rereading through my journal and He reminded me of a couple verses. First one was...

"An inheritance gained prematurely will not be blessed ultimately."

Proverbs 20:21

Our ultimate inheritance is heaven. Eternity with Christ. That is the ultimate and primary inheritance that we will receive at the end of this life. But there are also things that we have the privilege of receiving while still here on earth. Sometimes God will give us a vision or dream of those things that we have yet to inherit and us, being our eager selves, try to align our life in a way that makes it conducive to receive those things. First off, God doesn't need our help. He just wants our obedience. Second, the inheritance is His to give which means it's also His to manage. What I mean is that He determines the details of it all (who, what, where, when, how, etc.). Our job is to receive and obey. So, when we step out of our roles and attempt to fulfill God's role, we may get what was promised but it won't be blessed. A good thing at the wrong time is still a bad thing. Why am I saying this? Because when I look back on situations that may have seemed unfair in the moment, I am reminded that I serve a good God who wants me to experience the FULLNESS of my inheritance. So, when you experience heartbreak or disappointment...remember that God is good and that He is faithful. What you've been promised will come in it's proper time and in the proper way. There is a time for everything under heaven, and when that time is right, the Lord himself will make it happen. The second verse was...

"Others were given in exchange for you. I traded their lives for yours because you are precious to me. You are honored, and I love you."

Isaiah 43:4

This is God speaking to the people of Israel after they had been going through this cycle of sin and repentance. In Isaiah 40 and 41, the Lord really puts the hammer down and reminds them of His deity. Those two chapters really are the "mic drop" moment of the entire bible in my opinion. Anyway, it's a pretty powerful read and you can feel the intensity in what He is saying. What I love about Isaiah 43 is that His tone changes. He begins pleading with Israel in hopes that they would finally grasp His love for them. He reminds them that He created them, that He is always with them, and here in verse 4 very explicitly reminds them that they are precious to Him and that He loves them. The same words that God so poetically spoke to the Israelites, God is echoing to us today. You are precious to Him and He loves you. That's why when it comes to heartbreak or disappointment or major life changes that come out of nowhere, you can trust the Lord.

It's a challenging thing to learn and accept the sovereignty of God. It doesn't always seem fair or right until much later in life or until a certain situation has been redeemed. But the reality is that God is sovereign whether we accept it or not. God isn't who He says He is simply because we wake up one day and say that He is. This is why He says "I am that I am". He has been and He always will be.

We have come a long way from simply talking about feeling nostalgic, lol. In the midst of reminiscing God not only reminded me how I got from then to now, but why I did. Because He loves me and there is an inheritance to be received. Not solely for my sake. But for the sake of the Kingdom and the inheritance that they'll get to receive as well. So when things change and trials come do what James says. Consider it pure joy. God is doing something and you can trust Him. Whether it's to protect you or to challenge you. Whether it's to save you or push you. God is doing something.

So, all in all that's where I have been haha. I've missed you and I love you so much.