It gets better...

HI FRIENDS!!!! Goodness, it has been 3 whole weeks. Again, I apologize for not having a post up last week. My wonderful mother was in town to visit AND that just so happened to be the week I had something to do every night after work. So, yea lol. But I am here and so excited for today's talk. It's really nothing deep or super spiritual. I want to start by saying, I try to be equally intentional but also prepared when it comes to this platform. What does that mean? It means that I have a vault of posts and discussions waiting to be released for busy weeks like last week when I know I can't create something on the spot. However, there are reasons those things are still in the vault and I believe it is because God continues to have a present word for you and for me. Now, I know I didn't owe you that explanation but I hope that it would open you up to trust me a little more and to keep praying more. God hears you and this blog is one way I think He wants to respond to your prayers of more wisdom, knowledge, healing and so much more. Let's get into it today.

Some of you may know or may not know the kind of season I have just finished walking through. Some of you may have an idea but are too shy to ask or whatever the case may be. I have never actually talked about this as outwardly as I am going to right now. I am so nervous LOL!

Anyway, in November of 2021 my engagement was broken to someone who I had been with for a good while. The strong girl in me would love to preach "I survived and you can too! You're a woman and you're strong." And though those things are true, it didn't feel very true when it happened and all the moments that followed. I don't think I have ever been more embarrassed, ashamed, alone, scared, disappointed, and hurt in my entire life. The depth in which I felt these things, I would never wish on anyone! It was a very very hard season and my relationship with God was hard as well. It was interesting because I was upset with God but He was also the only one I knew that I could cling to. Now, this is a great time to mention that I like to move on rather quickly. Not in relationships just in circumstances. I don't like to sit or dwell longer than necessary. So, I began to attempt to set things in motion to seemingly move on...but God wasn't having it lol. He had a different plan! He always has a different plan.

Fast forward, I am walking through this very extensive healing process that is dealing with things that happened in my life way before this one situation. Though I am walking through this, I am still struggling to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I had no job, no car, I was in FL for a good bit of time so I was really lonely. I want to express that I am not saying these things to create drama, I am saying this to really give you perspective. I found myself wondering when this feeling and experience was going to end. I have never been the one to struggle with suicidal thoughts and still am not, thank you Jesus, but there was something in me that was done. Done trying, done caring, and quite frankly done trusting God for better days.

Last night, we had a youth service and it was amazing. A friend of mine preached such a sweet message and I got to watch as my small group girls responded to that message. I am currently planning for two trips that I am taking between next week and the summer. Monday's are probably my favorite night of the week because I teach a discipleship class and I get to impart but really just have some real conversations with real women. I live with the most incredible family and have the most amazing friends. I work a job that I never thought I would do and absolutely love it.

What is my point? My point and message to you today is that things get better. A year ago I probably would've had a hard time believing that...but today, with where I am standing and seeing, it's the the truest thing. Things. Get. Better. How we do we know this? Because the bible says that there is a time for everything under heaven. A time to mourn and a time to rejoice. Your time is coming! It also says that joy comes in the morning. Better days are coming. But here is the reality and challenge. The thing that will fix your eyes on the truth isn't christian cliches and it isn't the things of this world. It's the word of God. READ YOUR BIBLE!!! I cannot express that enough. Faith comes by hearing and hearing the word of God. Your faith is built when you read the word and spend time with Him. And when your faith is built, your hope begins to be restored. And when your hope is restored, you begin to see the light again.

So, I don't know what season or stage of life you are in. Maybe you're livin la vida loca and it's full of light. That is amazing and I love that for you!!! You still need to read your bible lol but LIVE YOUR LIFE !!! But for those of you who may be struggling to enjoy life or see the light, my word for you today is that it gets better. Hold on just a little longer. God is the most faithful man that I know. I would bet my life on His faithfulness over and over again because He is perfect and will never miss. Again, not the most deep and spiritually awakening message. But just a hug from me to you. Love you guys :) Literally as I am writing this, the verse of the day popped up and it's Romans 12:12 "Rejoice in our confident hope. Be patient in trouble, and keep on praying."