December Year in Review

Hello there strangers. Have I been missing in action for quite some time? Yes. And for that I apologize lol. Guys 2022 was and wasn't my year all at the same time. So, as the year comes to a close and we look toward bigger and better things, I figured we could walk down memory lane and just talk about the overarching theme of my year.

I got the opportunity for the first time since I was in high school, to ring in the New Year with my family. It was both sweet and very sad. The ending of last year was tough so ringing in the new year was very bittersweet. However, shortly after I got a taste of healing and thought I was cured. I came to visit Georgia, and what started as a visit turned into a 4 month stay, haha. But within that time, I did the 21 days of blogging during our churchwide fast. I really locked into my blog because it was sort of an escape of what was happening internally. Though a tough 4 months, it was a very revealing and healing 4 months. There were a lot of truths that I had to come face to face with. But within all of that, there was a night where I experienced such sadness. I can confidently say that I have never experienced something so heavy and painful before. However, in that very moment, the Holy Spirit spoke to me and said "This season will forever be know as 'The Father's Love'..." It sounds sweet, and it had its sweet moments but most of it was not sweet at all. The part of the Father’s love that we like is the part that comes in the form of blessing, favor, and fuzzy feelings. But this side of His love came in the form of healing, discipline, hard truths, a lot of no’s, and a lot of alone time with Him. I know Him better because of it, I trust Him better because of it, and I serve Him better because of it. What I thought was just a season of rejection and pain, was actually God’s rescue mission for my heart and my will - because only God knew that there was a girl on the inside in need of the Father’s love. I will forever be grateful for this season because of who I now know God to be and because of who I have become.

This season also taught me that healing requires a village. Friends, family, leaders, strangers, etc. So, to every person that loved on me, made me laugh, or simply just held my hand along the way, I LOVE YOU !!! I wouldn’t have made it this far without you. And to anyone who may be actively in a similar season, I want to encourage to ask God for divine community. He knows what you need.

In the midst of figuring all that out, I took a massive break from my blog during the summer and fall season. I have been adjusting to what life looks like now and trying to wrap my mind around what is next for myself, this blog, and just life in general. I know I always say "this time I am locking in, no doubt." But I really mean it this time, haha. I have been planning for the last couple weeks every detail imaginable for this platform. Ready to give it all that I have. So, with that being said, thank you for joining me on the craziest journey of my blog for the first year. You guys are real ones. I only hope you can join me for the years to come.

In other news, I will have a blog post going LIVE on New Years day. That post will just set the foundation for the new and hopefully encourage you for your new year. Keep an eye out for that! I love you all. Merry Christmas and so much more to you and your families.